Changes

You may have realized a bit of a change in my blog. Today was one of many bad days. It was to the point where I was constantly holding back tears. Then a few things happened - all right in a row. First was a comment made to me, "Your day is how you make it. Stop focusing on all the negativity and focus on the good parts of your day." Another thing that happened was that I heard Miley Cyrus's The Climb. I know, it's lame, but really, afterwards I felt totally calm. (Video to the right)

There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be a uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose

Life's just like a big mountain. I always want to take the easy way out and do things my way, but sometimes you just have to climb through it - but that's what life's really about.

Today I realized I was swimming into some dangerous waters. I was reaching a depression I've been in before, and refuse to go back to. (To the person who got me through it - the late night conversations, the crying shoulder - you know who you are. And THANK YOU!! I love you and I always will!)

So, to sum up, this blog is now devoted to the things that make me happy. The pattern is the pattern on my nephew shoes that he loves. The picture is my other nephew potty training. I hope that I can pass on my smiles to everybody who reads this blog.

P.S. Depression is hard. This will not be anywhere near my last bad day - but its nothing near the days I've had. If any of you feel like you are feeling depressed, PLEASE talk to me. I know what it's like and I can help you through it.